ack.

sooobrrraaang taaammaaad. pwede bang maging bum for one week lang? please just for one week. ack. i find myself dragging my feet to work this week. sobrang tamad na tamad akong pumasok! as in! i'm beginning to hate my schedule already. especially after shift, i have to go home sooo sleepy tapos sabayan mo pa ng mataas na sikat ng araw. ang saya! sometimes i wish i'm back to sorting.. come to think of it, if given the chance to go back to sorting i would. as in! i'm getting tired of what i'm doing already. promise. and i miss being with the rest of the team already.. even if it means i have to go and watch encantadia during lunchbreak just to be with the team i would! really i would. hehehe Ü i miss louie's impersonation of everyone, i miss marco's disappearing act, i miss aiah's kwentos about the books that she read, i miss janey's boy bastos jokes, i miss melo's sarcastic jokes, i miss krissy's kwentos about the chinese, korean and taiwanese communities.. i miss the rest of the team! that's why everytime i get the chance to sort i sort because i get to be with the rest of the team Ü

oh well. basta pag pwede nakong bumalik sa sorting sabihan niyo ko. hehe. sawang-sawa nako sa ginagawa ko sa totoo lang! i'll see you guys next week Ü

Release.

I had fun during the G.A earlier. My throat just fucking hurts and is itchy at the moment but I had fun nonetheless. Sana sa susunod na mag-host ako may bayad :harharhar:

The reason for this post is: I'd like to thank you girls for making me feel better earlier. Oh, the drama in my life. Sheesh. But in all truthfulness, I feel so much better now. Much much better. Actually, come to think of it, I feel unburdened. The questions playing in my crazy mind have been answered finally, although not in the way I expected. Now, I'm just relieved that it's finally, FINALLY over.

Krissy: I so thank you. Thank you for making me see that he's not worth it. Thanks for accompanying me to the bathroom and putting up with my ka-dramahan.

Aiah: Naku, nagulat ka ba when I said 'Isara nyo na yan! Isara nyo na!' ? Haha. Sorry, sorry sorry, Aiah. Thanks for your kind words and hug. I needed that.

Melo: You didn't have to say anything. The 'batok' did it. hahaha.

Kerry: As I said, now I feel...free. I'm thinking 'So, this is it, the closure I've been asking for.' I hope you find your closure soon.

I'm finding myself smiling more, and laughing heartily as before. Maybe I just loved too much.

It's an experience worth going through but not worth repeating.

'nuff said.

kaya pala JM...

grabe, i am so out of it. last night's shift while on the way to kfc with rose and janey, rosey asked me if i'm still using my profile when logging on to remote desktop. i said yes of course.. dba lahat naman tayo?! and they were like, 'oh no! you don't know JM?!' and then they explained to me that all of them are already using JM's account to be on the safe side. JM used to be an agent from Nitro who resigned but before resigning he gave his account to the agents to be used for remote desktop. apparently Louie got it from the ops and gave it to the team.. and i didn't know anything about it until last night! kaya pala.. i remember asking aiah and krissy why you call it JM pero hindi naman nila in-explain saken. i don't know if it's because cel was there or they were just too busy that time to explain it to me.

oh well. better late than never right? =) now i know who the infamous JM is. hehehe.

Someone has been reading my blog...

Kill me. Just kill me.

Might as well work until it consumes me...until I die of misery.

Makakuha pa nga ng libreng kape sa pantry. 'Nyeta.

1 year nako sa etel!! Ü

mga friends, batiin niyo ko... one year nakong nagtitiis sa etel!! hehehe. exactly a year ago, nagsimula akong magtrabaho d2 sa 14th floor. i remember getting out of the elevator, asking the guard "manong etelecare ba 2?" and looking for cel cojuangco. hehehe. the manong asked me to sit in the QA area and after a few minutes kris came out with rhutee. hiya pako sa kanila nun. haha! i remember jpeg asking me if i applied for this position (QCA) and i said no, i applied as agent and then he said " haha, welcome to the club." with his usual sarcasm. hmm.. noon palang pala pasaway na si jpeg no?!i remember kris asking me what is my favorite color yun pala may color coding when sorting; kris teaching me the basics of sorting and i was like, so lost. hahaha! i also remember asking her while going down to 7-11 to buy my food, "kelangan ba kitang tawaging ate? ilang taon kana ba?" turns out i was a year older than her. hahaha. i can't believe it's been a year already. time flies tlga. i can't believe i'm still here! hey, i'm glad i'm still here.. Ü

share ko lang, funny tlga. what i'm wearing right now is what i was wearing a year ago! hahahaha. weird tlga. dko sadya yun, nagkataon lang.

Yay for a Monday

HOW I LOVE MONDAYS!!

Feel the sarcasm in it?

How do I love Mondays?

As much as I love Sorting...

As much as I love our latest RRT.

No access to Dialer 5, therefore no Query access.

No more access to CC4 Program Drives, therefore no Cebu Screenshots.

92 calls per QA.

Crap.

Have I already said how much I love Monday sorting?

damn you.

pagbigyan niyo nako.. this all started on the 14th floor and so technically, this is an office issue. hehe. i remember when me and janeybeybi will have our 'transformation' before 9pm just after our lunchbreak so as not to look ngarag as we already looked and felt from all the sorting that we had to do then. shit. shit tlaga.

bakit may mga taong malabo sa mundo? bakit may mga taong nahihirapang sabihin kung ano ang gusto tlga nilang mangyari? bakit may mga taong tulad mo? putang ina. kung pwede lang bumalik sa nakaraan gagawin ko. kung alam ko lang ganito ang mangyayari, nakuntento na lang sana ko na nagpapapacute sa'yo at tumitingin sa'yo pag dumadaan ako sa ops nung nagsosort ako. ampucha tlga. kung alam ko lang.. sana hindi na kita nakilala. sana nalipat kana lang ng program bago pa kita nakilala. sana hindi mo na lang ako nilapitan para magpakilala. sana hindi mo na ginulo ang maayos at tahimik kong mundo.

after that senseless fight over the phone and not speaking to me for 2weeks, i decided to make the first move, i decided to reach out to you. and then what? anong ginawa mo? sendan ba ko ng lyrics ng kanta. ni hindi ko alam kung saang kanta galing yon. aanhin ko yon? what am i supposed to do with that? am i some kind of psychic to know what you want to tell me? what do you want me to do with that? why don't you just say what you want to say in the first place? why make my life more miserable? why not do something about this mess? goodness. what else do you want me to do? i've done what i could do already. what, ako na naman ba? ano ba. don't tell me you're confused and you don't know what to do. don't give me that crap. you know what to do, you just don't want to do it..am i right? hanggang kelan ako maghihintay sa'yo? o may hinihintay pa ba ako? i have so many questions, but will i get any sensible answers from you? is it too much to expect an explanation of your actions these past month? is it too much to ask for a closure so we can move on with our lives? so i can move on already and stop feeling like hell and pretending that everything is fine with me. so i can stop torturing myself by analyzing every little detail of your actions..or lack of it. why don't you just say what you want and what you really feel. grabe. ang labo mo. mas malabo ka pa sa babae eh. i don't even know what's going on in your mind right now coz you don't even talk to me. is that so hard to do? please don't leave me hanging. or better yet will someone just hang me pls? so that i won't feel anything anymore.

maybe after sometime i will forget everything. i will forget about you. forget everything that we had. erase you from my memory. forget that you've become a part of my life. but right now i am still struggling to get over you. suffering from the pain i'm going through. struggling to live day by day. struggling to believe that one day i will be ok. when that day comes, i won't even know you. you don't even exist as far as i'm concerned. damn you.

Grrrowwwwl.

It's 3:00pm and bitin ako sa tulog. It just mean na matutulog ako ulit after this blogging session. Teehee!

It's Saturday and I have nothing to do except stare at my PC and listen to music...parang gustong pumasok na lang sa office...NOT! Hahaha!

Aaaaaaaaactually, pwede rin naman eh basta wala akong gagawin dun, walang quota na susundan, at makikipagasaran lang with the opismeyts. Pweeeeeedeeeeeee?!

Hay naku. Makanuod na nga lang ng Pirates of the Carribean. Makilig naman ulit ako.

Leche.

Start of Another Weekend Ü

Hey beiches :)

Unfortunately, my first post isn't through our good ol' friend JM..but at least I am here in the comfort of my own PC with the screen maximized! No hiding ;)

Aiah, just fixed the links..hopefully it's okay. Just do say if you want a different caption or whatever :)

I know Kerry & Rose are rating right now, hopefully! And Aiah & also my baby Melo is sleeping...which I should also be doing but I'm watching Wan Quan Yu Le right now.. (Yay!! "wo hui lai le! wo hui lai le!" Waah!! Renfu's back! hehehe..)

Yes, I'm starting this weekend by waking up earlier than I do on weekdays...yap, yap, yap, crazy crazy me :) To of course, surf the net & basically use the computer... Now, watch a Taiwanese Entertainment Show (aww...it's actually their 3rd year anniversary now! cute ni renfu - bubuyog! ack! 183 club!)... Last night, before going home, I grabbed some stuff from the nearby Korean grocery in Makati. Some stuff, meaning I spent money on Korean food again, lol.. some ramen, snacks, candy & yay, that frozen delight I've been looking for. Then as I dozed off to sleep which a few hours earlier, I was listening to L'Arc~en~ciel (tama ba Aiah?)

Ayus..Korean...Japanese...Chinese! That's ME! :D

still thinking about the last RRT

Hey girls, I'm here!

Honestly, it's already 3 am, and I'm supposed to be sleeping already. Unfortunately, I can't sleep since I keep thinking about several things, most especially the last RRT that we (sorters) had. Totally depressed and bitter over the unexpected loser-ish grade. Honestly, I would have thought I settled it with myself that I got a freakin' 1.0 there, but apparently, I haven't yet since I'm losing sleep over it. Hay naku...

Anyway, it really shouldn't matter now. IT DOESN"T MATTER NOW!!! Hay naku, who am I kidding...

Ah basta... AJA AJA! FIGHTING! We will get a 3.0 next time!

btw, can you also link this to my LJ??? krissy, you know the url naman, di ba? thanks...

hmm..

we had a director's meeting with rea reyes our site manager for cc2 awhile ago and it turned out well despite of my hesitations to join. hehe. i was planning to go on petiks mode since i already finished my qouta at 6:30am (wow that's a first! hehe) when ann santos called izza to tell me to go down the 12th flr and join the meeting. i was like.. no i don't wanna go there.. anong gagawin ko dun tutunganga? i was planning to make tambay sa 14th flr since melo was there and i was hoping to see j 2d lo yung crush ko sa aol. hehe. bkt ba we're allowed to have crushes naman no. especially when your good-for-nothing ex is --. wait lng mamaya na yan. so anyway, i texted kit and asked her if i could just skip the meeting but no, she told me to go there. i thought it would just be me, ann, vince and kit but there were other QAs din pala from garfield, oracle and cybertron. wilks and jp were there also as well as some ppl from HR. rea was really friendly and approachable and she had this really casual attitude towards the meeting. i thought she would be this unsmiling, uptight manager but that was not the case. so there were questions, mostly from anne's team, clarifications, and answers from rea, wilks and jp. and there was this one piece of news that got my attention. did you know that they will be closing cc1 this year? they're finalizing everything already and hopefully by Q4 they will be able to implement it already. now, what comes to mind when you say cc1? speedway. of course. i'm wishing and hoping that they'll be transferred in cc2 since it's part of SBU, it's only logical that they put SBU programs in the same site right? right,right.. so bkt gusto ko sa cc2 sila? k'se masokista ko. yup. gusto ko lang pahirapan saril ko. and i was hoping that i get the chance na whenever we see each other dededmahin ko siya and act as if he doesn't exist. hehe. kaya ko ba yun? or baka magtago na lang ako forever sa batcave because i'm scared of running into him whenever i go somewhere.. hahaha. whatever. we'll see. let's wait na lng and see if things will push through.

i was hoping to go to work early tonight since i wasn't able to finish my encoding kanina.. hehe. and may bonding session kami ni kris that is if they're finish already with their sorting. natuwa naman ako we got to talk last night, ang dami2 naming dapat pag-usapan and we really haven't talked for a long time na so daming updates.. and rosey hope to see you later tonight! =)

ang tagal ng ikaw lang ang lahat sa akin. hehe. bakit ba?! walang paki-elamanan. =)

all alone.

i'm all alone. well actually not really. cel's with me here in the batcave, as well as maxi, nico and vince. hehe. but fats is on leave and rosey.. where are you? hope you're ok. im doing SO right now and i have 11 evals to go. i'm sleepy but I can't sleep because cel is beside me. how lucky can you get. hehehe... and i'm hungry. i'm just too lazy right now to go down to ministop or to the pantry to buy some food, good thing krissy gave me her piattos. thanks krissy!! Ü i will post my rantings later on.. i need total concentration to do that. hehe.

right now i just want to sleep. to eat. to go home and sleep the whole day.

Uwi na tayo.

Petix mode: I'm done with my quota of 15 evals and added 2 more just for kicks. I'm tired, I'm sleepy, I have a runny nose, and I feel the urge to curse and to cry.

Wow. Just your ordinary working day.

When will it ever end.

Ack.